Boredom returns....

Feeling alittle down today, tried to do some work, but I am a day too earlier to do it. Tried to visit my father, he wasn't home. Do my relatives really care about me?


There are decisions I have to make , like whether to leave here or stay, do I need to quit my job or not, and how fulfilling my life is right now on the scale of social interaction, zero!

I'm sooo bored now, and I need to return the guitar Amp I brought, but am reluctant to do it...cause it took me so long to get it. My last one was demolished when I got jumped on in the Park by some kids when I was playing my guitar out there. Recently I got another one, but because of the bank problems I've had, ( I got ripped off here banking with Wells Fargo in the Bay Area, Oakland, I lost another 68.00 in banking fees), my life is threatened.
I need money to get by until next payday, ( two weeks) I got less than hundred bucks with most of the bills paid, but if I return the Guitar Amp, I can get the $100.00 I paid for it.. giving me an additional money to last two weeks, plus put some money toward getting my gun out of layaway.

This seems kind of sensible since I already have an guitar Amp (though its not as good as the Roland), Yet it took me a long time to get this Roland Micro Cube and there's alot of questions I ask myself, like should I give up the guitar..its fun playing it with the Micro cube, but I don't really need the micro cube to play. if i play my guitar outside I risk getting jumped on again? But the Micro cube seems a better buy than wasting more money and forgetting about the value of music and investing in a gun. My instincts tell me to drop the cube, I can always get another , its not important, but the frugal side of me says hold on to it,it might be a long while till you get another. I'm depressed I cant decide.