Notes on Mrs Soffiel dream.

The feeling in the dream was of losing something precious. I guess what's changing or what I'm losing is a sort of innocence. I could file this post in my astrological blog. I didn't think a "middle-life" crisis could happen to me, but maybe that's what I've been going through.

I guess what I've been going through is been a sort of "wild goose" chase, chasing after a love, or a romantic notion of love with a women....like with a girl I knew before. I try in vain but I cannot find .  Causing all kind of hell . I'm coming to term with an idea that that particular relationship is gone...and that I need to move on in some way.

Maybe its my Mom that I miss, or maybe its my first love...

Looking for love can be like an addiction, I don't do drugs, but its like a craving for that first "high"...and that craving is what makes drug addicts, there always chasing after that first "high".....but can never find. Giving up delusion can be painful.

In astrology I guess the beginning of this passage of life is symbolized in a transiting Neptune to Neptune square.